bibimbap

it feels good to be empty... and yet when relief comes, it does not feel good to be full. i really liked scarfing down the actual bowl of bibimbap that i spent 10 dollars on. yet, i felt no relief as i ate it.

i feel like food is never worth spending money on. those 10$ could've fed me for a whole week... i'm gonna try to remember this experience for next time.

i was shaking when i wasn't eating and it was starting to make me anxious but i knew that that would pass. i ate anyway, to stop it. yet i don't feel even a little bit better-- in fact, i'm shaking even more now and i'm anxious and shaky and something just feels wrong. i feel like i wasted that fucking money.

i'm never buying food out again. fucking waste.